Rediscovering Eden
I walk with You whereve You go
through tears and joy I will trust in You
I will live in all of Your ways
and Your promises forever
Jesus, I believe in You ♥
Dear dairy,
Monday, September 1, 2008
-5:11 PM
Hais, something in plan for me nowadays? Trying to spark up my life? Troubles after troubles, making my mind feel occupied or what? Maybe that phrase, ''curiosity kills the cat'' does make sense. Though smiling outside, i'm feeling so hurt and troubled; i'm dying inside. The day started off bad, very bad. What happened really changed my thoughts about the person i once admire. Standing up after each fall, how many people can do that? Used to admire, not anymore. But seriously, who am i to care so much about what's going on? But it's just affecting me, no matter how hard i try to ignore, i'm not succeeding. Life's starting to suck again. So many things are happening. It's all coming too fast. I'm starting to hate my life; hate the way i'm living my life. It really sucks. I'm really sad. What can i do to solve all this? One solution for one problem? It's not working! Went to school for remedial, went to jurong point after that. Kinda forgotten what had happened this morning. But once i came back, once i recieved his call, everthing just came back into my mind. Or maybe i just haven't got the facts right. But i believe what i see, and i'm hating what i saw. Hey, you know it's wrong, why still do it? I really do hope you know how i feel. What if those who aren't suppose to know about this finds out what is going on? How are you gonna face it? Human do make mistakes, ya. But most of the time when they do it, it couldn't be prevented. They didn't know it would turned out as a mistake too. But for those who know? You just plain dumb or what? Why do things you know you aren't even suppose to do? 5.34pm,i'm writing these. Hais. I hope you will realise your mistake and turn back. Be contented with the things you have. Life is gonna be 'interesting' soon. I'm not enjoying living my life like i used to anymore! Hais. Hope things will improve soon. I'm on the verge of breaking down. :'( The day was okay today. And my mum's coming home soon too, i'm really missing her nagging :) 1stSep'o8; more is to come. :: 5.52pm :: immissingyou-
